What happened? I hope the second part isn't serious and it's just your frustration talking. This is a crazy, frustrating hobby and everyone in it spends a lot of time crashing and repairing their quads - even the guys who make it look really easy in their videos. Obviously as you put in the hours, things get a lot easier. To get good, I think you need to learn to really enjoy the hobby from end to end, especially the build, repair, setup, and tune portions, since that's where most of your time will go, especially in the beginning.
When I started, we had three guys sharing one build because parts were a lot more expensive then. Also, our dumb asses saw too many videos that made it look really easy, so we bought EVERYTHING, including a full FPV setup, before we had ever even flown a quad. We would then spend hours building and tuning - then we'd go stand in the back yard and take turns trying to get our quad to take off and hover. Instead, it would flip over, spin in circles, drift like crazy, etc. Once we thought we had it tuned (after days posting in forums, etc. for advice), we would go to the park and within 5 minutes, we'd have a crash that required us to replace parts on our frame... which we didn't have, so we'd have to order from HobbyKing and wait 2-5 weeks for them to show up (no US warehouse back then).
When we heard about OpenPilot boards, we thought that was going to be our savior. We waited up all night and each ordered a board before they sold out. Since we were keeping everything with one person and having to travel for the build, we eventually said screw it and dropped the guy who lived far away. At this point, there were two of us. Since the OpenPilot board was going to be awesome, one of us decided that we were going to spend $200 on a QAV frame. We got our build done and flew it and it actually flew decently the first time. We felt really good other than at one point the quad dropping straight to the ground (but from only a couple of feet). We figured we just dropped the throttle too low. On the very next flight, we thought we were in business and felt pretty good about things - until the quad dropped from the sky out of nowhere and smashed into pieces.
At this point, we just broke a $200 frame and had never had much of a successful flight. Replacement parts were going to be over $100, and we didn't even know what went wrong, so we didn't know what to correct for the next flight. At this point, I wanted to get a cheap frame, keep FPV and video off of it, and get good at building and flying, but the other guy still wanted to go all in - so we broke up the group again and we were all on our own. I went back to the basics, bought a cheap frame (a few of them), and extra motors and ESCs. I also kept all of my FPV gear and my GoPro on the shelf. Then I went out and read and re-read everything about building quads and learned a lot of new stuff that I hadn't picked up before. Eventually I got my build done and the quad flew perfectly, except my throttle was too linear and the quad was super jumpy. This caused a lot of crashes just due to human error (poor piloting). At this point, I had over a thousand dollars invested, at least 100 hours involved in various builds, but I had maybe an hour of flying under my belt. I tried various simulators, but the ones at the time didn't really translate into real life.
**Note, during this whole time, I lived in the downtown area of a city, so I had to travel to even check to see if I could get off the ground straight after an adjustment. In the beginning, I was testing in the house, but one day I found out that my TX had a bug where it would send half throttle when turned on and I still had my quad powered when I turned off the TX then quickly remembered I wanted to try something else and turned it back on. It went straight into the ceiling of my house. That crash pretty much destroyed everything and even bent the motor housings on some of the motors. So not only did I have to order parts and wait for them to arrive to rebuild, I had to spend an entire day repairing plaster (house built in 1905) and blending paint on my destroyed ceiling.
**There's also the time where my carbon fiber prop broke and it cut my girlfriend's hand open because she got too close to the quad while it was off, but still had power connected... and we had to spend half a day in the emergency room.
After all of that (and then some), I was starting to get really good at building and figuring things out and slowly, but surely, I could go out and burn a few batteries without issue. I still had problems here and there and still spend more bench time than flying time just preparing, tuning, cleaning, testing, etc. I've been doing this for years and I don't have as much time as some of these people to fly every day, but I fly enough and I'm still not as good as all these guys you watch in these videos.... but I really enjoy the hobby - learning and building just as much as flying.
Just like me and my buddies when we started, most people don't realize what they're getting into. Unless you go and buy a Phantom and use all of their auto-pilot features to fly for you, 10x (or more) of the hobby is spent on the work bench and doing research than it is flying. And then to get good, you need to fly A LOT.
I read this book "Mastery" by Robert Greene and in one section, he describes this whole situation pretty well. He basically says that learning something new - a new language, an instrument, a skill, etc. - is very challenging, frustrating, and boring when you start because you are not good at it and your failure at it seems never-ending. The people who master things are the ones who put their head down and push through that and accept and learn from every failure. Before they know it, they are good at what they're doing and then increasing their mastery of the subject becomes very enjoyable. Too many people get discouraged because they don't realize that all of those that they see out there that are making it look easy had to go through the same poop they're going through now to get to build the skills they have.
One more tip... I recently bought an Indy250 from RCTimer. It was fairly inexpensive and almost ready to fly. This thing was super stable and flew well right out of the gate. I crashed in the beginning due to some of the screws loosening up, but for anyone looking to learn to fly, I would definitely recommend getting something ARF that is engineered, tuned, and tested to work out of the box. This would have saved a lot of frustration for me if I did it in the beginning, but back then, RTF and ARF was $1500+.
And if you're serious about the statement you made:
https://www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/wiki/hotlines
Not worth it. There is always someone who is going through or who has gone through a lot worse than you have - no matter how bad you think it is. You need to change your frame of mind and just know that every single thing that happens is an experience that you can learn from and gain strength from. I'm not one to preach, but the serenity prayer is the perfect thing to live by. Change the things you can change and forget the rest and move on. Just don't be delusional about what it will take to change those things for the better. Nothing worthwhile doesn't require hard work.
And it sounds like you have a pretty cool dad. I recently lost my dad unexpectedly (he was 56). He was my best friend in the world and when you said you went to see your dad and he helped you fix up your quad, it reminded me of the relationship I had with my dad. There were a lot of times I've posted in forums with the same time... we (he) did such and such to fix whatever (usually car stuff). Just having a cool dad like that alone should make you not worry about any stupid little things (that you can eventually correct) like your quad not flying right.
Mike